January 17 2025

David Lynch died today. I feel saddened of course but I don't know why. Thinking about it now though, I think I know more deeply why he means what he means to me. I originally wrote a lot after this - mostly analysis of his work that stuck with me - but I deleted it and started from the last sentence again. I think I feel a loss of a distant kinship with someone in this world who I didn't even know. It feels like a lot of how I feel about things are things David articulates in his work and his detailing about his process. It's sad to know that someone I look up to and owe a lot of credit for giving me hope in this world is gone now. I never expected to meet him or work with him, but it was comforting to know that somewhere out there was someone that made me feel secure in who I am. It's a bleak world out there and he gave me inspiration to do things my way in this lifetime. I truly owe a lot of myself to him. I hope he's okay on the other side, wherever that may be, and he's found some sort of peace.


January 2 2025


I'm a day late to this, but at least I'm starting it. My good friend tracked everything he did last year in a Google Doc and as I looked through it it made me realize that I should probably do the same. 2024 kind of flew by, for better and for worse, but I think overall it's a good way to track time and be able to preserve things I might have forgotten about. I can't really list a ton of stuff I did last year, but I know I did do stuff.

Anywho, today was ok. I had a brief meltdown in the morning and my boyfriend comforted me through it which was nice. He really is amazing. After that we got food and did some laundry and came home to work on our projects.

I've been playing a lot of Balatro lately. I didn't really get the hype at first, and I'm not super into card games but now I can't turn it off. It's so addicting it scares me. Thank god real money isn't at stake!

I got a new job recently as well and it's been good. It's more of a warehouse fullfilment thing rather than the retail jobs I've always tended to work at. Some of the people that pick up orders are rude, but I don't deal with any 'Karens' per se anymore. I get to wear headphones all day and just listen to podcasts too, which is nice. I'm on the spectrum so it helps me just focus on my work and get less overwhelmed.

I'll update this as much as I can and I'm going to really try to stick to it. Besides diary entries there will also be just a brief list of things I did and places I went - much like my friend did.

2025!!!!!!!! Wooooooooo

January 6 2025

- Started reading "The Uncensored Picture of Dorian Gray

January 7 2025

- Watched "Fritz The Cat", "A Complete Unknown", and "Encanto" with M
- Went to the Shedd Aquarium with M
- Tried Jollibees for the first time (I liked it!)

January 10 2025

- Watched "The Lighthouse" with M

January 11 2025

- Watched "North by Northwest" with M

January 14 2025

- Watched "Nosferatu" with friends (second watch)

January 17 2025

- Went to underscores' DJ set at Lincoln Hall